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Still Alive
03:13
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How’d you learn to be like that?
Where’d you learn to spin those little lies?
Does it not tire you out?
Does it not come back to haunt you?
You helped me grow thicker skin
And now I know all your little signs
Guess I should give you that
Since it’s all you’ll ever give me
And I let you
Mess me around
Too many times
No more
Fuck you I’m still alive
Fuck you I’m still alive
Fuck you I’m still alive
And I’m not going anywhere with you
What do you tell yourself?
How do you get to sleep at night?
Do you have regrets at all?
Or do they just wash off you?
You wanted me to feel small
But I was strong enough to see through you
It took me far too long
To say goodbye baby
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2. |
Best of Intentions
01:56
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You’ve been having these dreams
About finding a hiding place
A place to hide your face
But today you seem stuck
You find it hard to say no
With the best of intentions
Everything you’ve got
Is everything they’re taking
Everything you’ve got
Is everything they’re taking
This is your space
This is the best place
This is yours
But they won’t let you stay
If you love then you love
If you don’t then you don’t
Don’t want to have to rush self-discovery
Want to kiss without query
Want to love without question
You’ve got the best of intentions
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3. |
Less Than Perfect
02:51
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You say you wish that you had gone out more
While you had the chance
The ones you envy are kept up at night
By parallel remarks
You’re arguing with no one
When you say that it’s not fair
Don’t tell yourself to run ahead
And that you’ll meet you there
You never said
You never said
You never thought you needed to
You never said
You never said
You know full well you need to
It’s alright now
Not what you hoped but that’s ok
Teenage hopes are never
Less than perfect anyway
I hold my breath when you say
You thought of me
Cause I worry it reminds you more
Of who I’d like to be
But we’re made of puzzle pieces
And I hope that I am right
When I guess the parts you recognise
Could be the parts you like
I never said
I never said
I never thought I needed to
I never said
I never said
I know full well I need to
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4. |
Keep in Touch
03:37
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We were friends
With a feeling of permanence
Spoke everyday
Got lost in each other’s arms
Now I write
And I hope you get my letters
And you don’t wish
They were from someone better
We were so naive
We were so together
We were so young
Full of false dreams of forever
Everybody changes
Some things stay the same
We still keep in touch
But you don’t call my name
Everybody changes
Some things stay the same
We still keep in touch
But you don’t call my name
I hope the things that I didn’t say
Don’t hurt you too
You went abroad
Teaching English as a foreign language
So far away
Now I never see you face to face
Keep in touch with pictures
Keep in touch with postcards
And every message sent
Is short and sweet and gone
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5. |
Bad Year
03:51
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It’s been a bad year
And I don’t think it’s getting any better
Any time soon
And I’m so scared of what is coming
I don’t know what to do
I want to help
I want all of my friends
Not to be terrified
I need to understand
And not give in to the anger that’s inside
I admire your optimism
But sometimes I just need to feel it
Just need to take a moment
Before I can start dealing
And I admire your optimism
But sometimes I just need to feel it
I just need to feel it
It’s been a bad year
It’s been a bad year
And it’s hurt so many people
Way more than I can understand
But I keep thinking of myself
Cause I’m such a selfish man
Keep making lists of how to help
But not getting a thing done
And I believed you when you said that
This day would never come
It’s been a bad year
Tomorrow we’ll wake up
And keep on going
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6. |
Alright (sometimes)
03:03
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I said let's pretend the world's alright
Let's pretend we’re doing fine
For fifteen seconds at a time
And I won't cry if you won't cry
What will happen to me when the ice gets thin?
I don't even feel comfortable in my skin
But with you I feel alright
Sometimes
With you I feel alright
Sometimes
You said you've got no reason to hide
Don't say I love you cause I'm far too shy
But I think it all of the time
We're just two queers with broken minds
And being sad is part of being alive
And we can't keep fighting every single night
And it's alright to cry
Sometimes
It’s alright to cry
Sometimes
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Wasn’t going out tonight
Didn’t have a stitch to wear
But then Josie said you’d be there
So I threw on a jumper
Sipping cola sitting on the sofa
I could barely fit in
Then you move into the kitchen
And then I feel the hunger
I only say what I want you to hear
I only drink your favourite beer
I’m only here cause I heard you were here
But I only dance when I want to
I only dance when I wanna dance
I only dance when I wanna dance
I only dance when I wanna dance
I only dance when I want to
Sipping cola cornered by the toaster
You with a bottle of gin
I like the way you’re moving
But why don’t you ask me?
You say ‘it’s my favourite song’
You’ve said that about every one
And you’re reaching for my hands now
But I don’t wanna dance now
You think you’ve got this hold on me
But I’m in control I’ll make you see
Just because you’ve brought me to my knees
Won’t get on my feet when you say so
Friends are strewn across the floor
You’re out cold by the bathroom door
So I throw off my jumper
Jump up on the sofa
Look at me, yeah,
Watch me twist again, yeah,
Does it remind you of last summer?
And I know that it’s winter
But I’ll dance if I wanna
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8. |
I Hope She Loves You
02:11
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I heard that you’re engaged now
The news shouldn’t have stung
It’s been years since we were together
And I really have moved on
I’m a whole different person
You’re not inclined that way
Would be weird to think we could work out
What would you even think of me?
But sometimes I miss you
And the times that we shared
And I hope she loves you
Like I couldn’t do
I know that I confuse you
You thought you’d done something wrong
Just in love with a person
Who didn’t exist in that shape or form
I’m sorry that I hurt you
And that I pushed you away
And that I didn’t trust you enough
To think that you could deal with me
But sometimes I miss you
And the times that we shared
I’m not saying they were all good
I’m just saying I cared
And I hope she loves you
Like I couldn’t do
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9. |
While You Were Sleeping
02:44
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While you were sleeping
Wondered what it was
That you had been anticipating
I’ve been here before
It always ends in tears and someone wondering
What they have done wrong
And I don’t wanna tell you
Don’t want to have to tell you
It doesn’t get better than this
Not scared to say that
You’re my perfect set of circumstances
But I’m so scared of what comes next
When I’ll finally learn
Ideals alone will never fix this
And I don’t wanna tell you
Don’t want to have to tell you
Could it be different with you?
I don’t wanna tell you
I don’t like to hold a grudge
But if he could see me now
I’m sure he would repeat his actions
And maybe you should know
But I just hope this time
That it won’t be so pertinent
Maybe you should know
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10. |
Body
03:19
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Do you like the way you look naked?
I don’t know if any of us do
And I still hate my body
But I’m learning to love what it can do
Do you believe me when I tell you you’re beautiful?
Cause I know I don’t believe you
And I still hate my body
But I’m learning to love what it can do
Other people seem so confident
Don’t know how they do it
You’ve got a lot to be proud of
I’ve got a lot to be proud of
I keep pretending to miss your calls
Cause it’s the easiest thing to do
And I still hate my body
But I’m learning to love what it can do
You’ve been giving me nothing but kind words
Maybe we can make it through
And I still hate my body
But I’m learning to love what it can do
Are you ok now?
Do you feel alright?
Why did you say
You want to die?
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11. |
High School
03:58
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If I played sports in high school
Would we still be friends?
Would I still write music?
Would I be different?
Would I have thought you were uncool?
Would you have hated me?
Would we still read the same books,
Would you even talk to me?
And if I played sports in high school
Would I be confident?
Would I have thought more of myself?
Had more self-respect?
And if I played sports in high school
Would I have wasted less time?
Would I have come out earlier
Or would I keep it inside?
And I’m not saying
I regret the old days
Can’t take back
The choices that I made
I guess I wouldn’t want to anyway
I just can’t help looking back and wondering
If I played sports in high school
Would I even like me?
Would I be someone to be proud of
Or just this mess that you see?
Would I have told you I loved you?
And would that even be true?
Would you have left me all the same
If I played sports in high school?
I just can’t help looking back and wondering.
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